Today I finally signed up for the actuary exam and decided to study like there is no tomorrow.
I think I finally got the answer, I was looking for and can finally move on. After seeing what have been going on in recent days have convinced me enough to learn to let go and move on. Now I am facing my old rival again...me and the future.
For the longest of time I have wanted an answer, an explanation, some sort of reasoning... and boy it feels good having it. I am comfortable with myself again really have moved on.
This experience have made me sad and bitter, frustrated in many ways and an experience I don't want to deal with again right now. The biggest lesson I learned is to... "Let go... Don't get to hanged on to things"....
Thinking back about the past really made me think of myself a lot. Thinking about these situations that I have exposed myself to have made me cling on to things less and less. In a way it feels like I am improving myself in every possible way to be held on to things that were important to me. But at the same time.... everytime something like this happens to me it feels like I am loosing a part of myself because I am afraid to get hurt again once I become clingy.
Fear is not something that should dictate your life but something to remind us the consequences of things. Like in the law of Accounting, for every credit there must be a debit.
O' boy I'm starting to remember all the things I use to tell myself. Having and not having goes together because once we get something we want we often give up something we have that we often take for granted. In economics its called....Opportunity Cost!!!
By truly letting go you can really move on and to deal with yourself once again.
Right now I just want to thank my friend whom have gotten me to the habit of blogging...It is truly a way to express myself with out having people to judge me.
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